I dey ask for di help wey I need

I ask, and person tok yes, and e no be di big big tin wey I bin build am into inside my head. I go do dis one earlier next time, because na to wait be di expensive part and to ask no cost me almost anytin at all. Two weeks wey I carry am for body. One minute wey I take tok am. I for like collect dose two weeks back, and I no go spend di next two di same way.

One message dey my screen wey tok say no wahala at all. Two word, wey dem send inside one minute, afta I spend two full week without sending my own. I dey continue to look di time wey dey on top am. No hesitation dey inside am anywhere, no weighing, no sign at all say I ask for sometin big or sometin strange.

I go rader suffer quietly pass to be load for anoda person back, and I don dey call dat one independence for years. E resemble pride pass, and e don cost me time wey I no go collect back. Di arithmetic no ever work. I bin dey protect oda pipo from two minutes favor by spending two weeks dey do di tin badly by mysef, and den I go call di result say na to stand on my own leg. Nobody ever ask me to do dat. Na me decide am for dia head, I no ever check wit dem, and if person wey I love do di same tin to me, e for really pain me. To refuse help no dey make me strong. E dey make me slow, and e dey quietly tell di pipo wey dey around me say I no trust dem wit anytin real.

Pipo dey like am wen dem ask dem for sometin. Wen person fit be useful to somebody wey dem love, dat one no be cost, na one of di better part of any day, and I don quietly dey deny dat tin to pipo wey love me while I dey tell mysef say na consideration I dey do. Every time wey person ask me for sometin specific, e dey sweet me say na me dem tink about. E no ever enter my head say di same tin dey run for di oda direction, and say my silence bin dey read as distance instead of as strength. Di strongest pipo wey I sabi dey ask for tin every time and dem dey ask direct, and na upside down I bin dey hold di whole picture.

So I go name di one specific tin, to di one specific person. No be general feeling of say I dey struggle, wey nobody fit act on even wen dem really wan help. One tin, one person, wit mout. Request wey specific easy to answer yes to. Di vague one na just atmosphere wey oda pipo gats stand inside dey guess wetin go help.

I don ask. Dem don answer. I no need to carry am alone, and e come be say I no ever need to.