I go feed myself well tonight

Sometin dey cook and di whole house don carry di smell. Na on purpose I make dis one, for mysef, tonight, wit nobody else anywhere inside di matter. Nobody dey come. No occasion dey and no audience dey. I go do am again dis week, because e take fifteen minutes and e change di whole character of di evening.

Steam dey di window and one pan dey make di noise wey pan dey make. Notin here dey impress anybody and all of am warm. One bowl dey out, na my own, and I go sidon wit am rader dan to chop am wit my leg standing. Radio dey on and I no really dey listen to am, wey na exactly di correct amount of attention wey person suppose give radio.

I dey feed everybody else well well and den I go stand for sink side chop my own. I no go ever gree make person wey I love do dat kain tin, and na my own body I dey do am to without even tinking, wey dey tell me sometin wey I don dey carefully refuse to hear. Di standard wey I hold for oda pipo and di standard wey I hold for mysef no be di same standard. I don spend years dey call dat gap say na to put oda pipo first. E resemble habit wey I neva once examine for daylight pass, and habit no need my permission before e go continue to dey run. Na only make I no look, na dat one e need.

To cook one real food no be about wetin body go gain from di food. Na fifteen minutes wey I take treat mysef like person wey worth di stress, and dat kain claim hard to argue wit afta, wen person dey sidon for front of di evidence. How I dey treat mysef wen nobody dey look no be small private matter. E dey quietly set di floor for wetin I go gree collect from anywhere else, and na ordinary Tuesday wey resemble dis one dem dey take build floor. Nobody else go ever raise dat floor for my sake.

So tonight I go cook one real food. E fit simple. Di only requirement na say make I make am, no be say I open am from packet, and dem no allow me to chop am wit my leg standing. I go sidon wit am. Dat second part no be decoration, na half of di whole medicine, and na dat half I for quietly drop first if I allow mysef escape. Simple no be problem at all. Na to sidon be di part wey no dey optional.

I don chop. Well well. And na person wey dey pay attention feed me.