I dey finish wetin I start

I don reach di end. No be di perfect version, na di one wey I finish, and I go sidon wit dat difference for one minute because I waste years dey mix di two together and e cost me pass wetin I wan add up. E dey my front and e don finish. One particular quiet dey come wen sometin stop to dey wait for person, and na inside di middle of dat quiet I sidon so. Notin inside dis room dey ask me for anytin.

My shoulder don come down from di place wey e bin dey live. One pen dey di table wey I no need again. Di light waka across di wood two times wen I dey work and I no notice any of di two, and na only dat sign I don ever trust to show say I truly dey inside di work, no be say I dey waka round am from far and dey call dat one effort. Di room scatter exactly as e scatter dis morning and e no concern me.

For long stretch I no fit even look am. E just sidon dey heavy, di way tin wey person no finish dey do, and every day wey I no touch am add weight to di next day. Na dis be di mechanism, and e good make person call am by im name because to call am na almost di whole medicine. To dey run from work no dey free. E dey feel free, because di bill dey come later and for anoda currency, but I pay for every single one of dose days wit small fear wey dey hum for my back, wit evening wey I no fit enjoy well because dis tin still dey open, and di total come pass wetin di work for ever cost me.

Wetin break di tin open no be motivation and e no be better plan. Na twenty minutes wit di door lock and no promise about tomorrow. Di work neva big reach di fear wey surround am. Fear na prediction wey my head dey make wit almost no information, e come from system wey wan keep me safe, no be system wey wan make me effective, and dem two na two different project. Na from inside only e dey ever shrink. Wey mean say di only way to sabi how big a tin really be, na to stand inside am.

So today I go open di file and I go set timer for twenty minutes. Na dat be di whole assignment. I no dey decide weda I go finish am. I dey decide say I go spend twenty minutes for im side, and I get permission to stop di moment wey di timer ring. No be trick wey I dey play on mysef to squeeze more work comot. Na di real agreement be dat, and I go keep am, because agreement wey I keep worth pass plan wey I throwey.

To finish sometin na real feeling and na my own. No be perfect. Finish. And di next one go start light, because I don sabi exactly wetin twenty minutes worth, and na number wey I go dey use for di rest of my life.