I dey finish di thing wey I dey always restart

I don pass di part where I dey always stop. Tonight I go further wit dis one pass how I don ever go, and e no dramatic even small. No breakthrough dey. Chair bin dey and fifteen page. I go leave di marker where e dey and do exactly di same tin tomorrow, and na di only machine wey don ever actually work for me for anytin. Fifteen page no dey impress anybody. But fifteen page wey I no go ever read again na different tin completely.

Di marker don move. Small stack of di part wey I don read dey behind am now, and di part wey I neva read no longer look like wall di way e bin look one week ago. Di spine don start to bend for di correct place. E don begin look like book wey person own, no be book wey person just buy.

I don start dis book four times. Every restart cost me di ground wey I don already cover, and I bin call dat one say I dey thorough, wey na say I dey generous to mysef. Wetin e really be na say I refuse to accept position wey no complete. I wan be person wey don read am properly rader dan person wey dey di middle of reading am. Dat preference don cost me page wey reach four book while I no dey hold even one of dem. Perfectionism no dey produce better work for dis matter. E dey produce no work at all, very slowly, while e dey feel like say na serious work I dey do.

Progress no need momentum, e need marker. Fifteen page wey I keep worth pass fifty wey I go read again next year, because na for di part wey person keep, na there di gain dey gather. To go back to di beginning bin dey feel like seriousness and e dey function as reset. Anytin wey dey reset my position no be strategy, na way wey dem disguise well well to stand still while person dey feel very busy. I go rader really dey halfway inside sometin pass to dey di beginning of am again and again.

So tonight, fifteen page, and I go leave di marker exactly where I stop. Tomorrow go start from there, no be from di beginning and no be from di last chapter wey I feel confident about. No rereading just to feel like say I don catch up, because to feel like say I don catch up no be di goal and e no ever be. Forward only, from where I actually dey, no be from where I for prefer to dey.

I don go further pass yesterday. Na dat be all wey finishing don ever be.