Di first morning for place wey be my own

I wake before alarm ring, inside room wey na my own, and I go remember dis morning for long time. For one second I no sabi where I dey, den e come clear, and di sabi enter my body like heat. Notin dey di wall yet. Light full di place well well. Na me do dis one. No be luck, no be say time favor me, no be say person sidon decide say dem owe me. Na me do am, and dat sentence go take small time before I fit tok am wey my body no dey shake.

Di floor cold small for my leg. One window dey wey I neva sabi yet, and sun dey enter through am for one angle wey I go sabi off head before one month finish. Somewhere for down, door close. Kettle. Water dey waka inside pipe. Na di particular sound wey dis place dey make for morning, and e don already dey turn to sometin wey familiar. I dey waka from one end go di oda end wit no reason at all. Notin here big, but everytin here na my own.

Dis tin take time pass wetin I want. Months dey wey di figures no gree move at all, and evening dey wey I stop to do di calculation because di calculation no dey kind. Na dis be wetin I sabi now wey I no sabi dat time. Progress towards any big tin dey almost invisible wen e dey happen, and dat one no be fault inside di process, na di process dey work exactly as dem design am. Di months wey feel like say na notin, no be notin. Na di part wey nobody dey snap photo, di part wey dem dey jump for every version of di tori wey person go tell afta.

My own mistake na say I take slow month as proof say di tin no dey work. Na slow be how work dey look wen person dey inside am. Anytin wey dey compound no dey pay almost notin for long stretch and den e go pay everytin at once, wey mean say to judge am for di middle na how person dey quit for di exact moment wey di payment wan land. No be more discipline I need. Na better measuring rod I need, di kain wey dey measure wetin I dey put inside, no be wetin don show face so far, because di second one fit dey lie give person for months.

So today I go name one tin wey I fit do dis month towards di next one, and I go put am inside calendar for where my eye must see am. No be di whole road. No be di plan wey cover everytin and come scatter before two weeks finish. One tin, wit date for im back, because tin wey get date na promise, and tin wey no get date na feeling wey no go survive one busy week. Na so di months dey start to count.

I stand for di middle of di room for one minute before I do anytin else. No furniture, no plan, na just floor and light and di sound of di place. Na so tin wey person work for dey look wen e finally stop to be goal and turn to ordinary Tuesday morning. Na so e dey always look from inside, and na why e dey hard for pipo to recognize am wen e land.