I go talk di thing wey I dey carry

We don dey tok again. No be di careful tok wey pipo dey do wen dem dey waka round sometin, na proper tok, di way we bin dey do before, and dis one I go hold tight. Some lightness dey my chest wey I don quietly stop to expect for dis matter. I don so used to say e no dey sotay I stop to notice say e miss. E come be say na me carry di whole load all dis time.

Table dey between us, two cup dey on top am, and one of us don already laugh for one small tin wey no make any sense. Na dat particular relief wey dey come wen voice wey person sabi well call im name for di ordinary way, as if say no time waste at all. Nobody among us dey do careful wit di oda one. Na dat part I first notice, and na dat part I go remember.

Time waka. E waka pass as I plan. Every week wey pass make di first sentence hard to write, sotay di silence isef come turn to di tin wey I dey beg pardon for, and dat trap sharp well well. Di longer person leave am, na di bigger di opening go need to be, and di bigger di opening need to be, na di longer person go leave am. Dat loop fit run for years if nobody break am. To wait no be say I dey protect di friendship. Na mysef I dey protect from like thirty seconds of discomfort, and na di friendship I dey charge di bill.

Di opening no need to fine. Wetin e need na to true, and to short. Pipo dey almost always dey wait make door open. Dem no dey check how dem take build di door. I bin build one whole theory about how I don damage dis friendship finish, wit complete gist of wetin dem must dey tink about me now, and di theory come be say na my own silence e take build. Na me be di only person wey dey inside dat room all dis time, dey hold di two side of one conversation wey neva happen. Dem neva lock di door. Na me just stop to touch di handle and come decide say dat one mean say e lock.

So today I go send di message. Two sentence. Say di person don dey my mind, and say I go like make we tok. I no need to solve everytin inside di first one. I no need to explain di gap or give account for am or carry reason wey strong enough to justify di delay. Na only di door I need to open, make dem decide wetin go happen next, and na dia own part be dat from di start, e neva be my own.

Any answer wey come back, I don stop to carry di load alone. Dat part don finish, and na only dat part be my own to do from di beginning. Di rest neva dey my hand, and to dey pretend say e dey na how I take keep mysef busy instead of to brave up.