I dey make space to rest wey I no need work for

Night don reach and di day don close for my back. Notin dey wait. I don decide say I go sabi how to stop, di same deliberate way wey I take sabi how to start before, and na tonight e dey begin, because evening wey nobody need to justify na di harder skill among di two. Di lamp dey on. I don sidon and na sidon I go sidon.

Warm light for one corner, di rest of di room dey dim. One cup dey cold near my hand and no rush dey for am. Person television dey sound through di wall, person dog, one whole street of oda pipo dia Tuesday. My shoulder come down before I even notice say e bin dey up.

I bin dey treat rest like sometin wey person dey buy, and di currency na output. For any day wey I judge say I no do enough, I go sidon and feel like tief, and na sure way to end up wit neither di work nor di recovery, because guilt dey occupy di exact hours wey repair need and e no dey give anytin back for dem. Di belief wey dey under am simple. I worth wetin I produce. Rule like dat dey do im damage quietly, because e no dey ever announce imsef, na cloth of responsibility e dey wear come, and na di one costume wey nobody dey ever tink to search.

Rest no be di prize wey dey di end of di work. Na di tin wey dey enter for di front of di work. My patience wit pipo, my judgment afta four o'clock, di quality of anytin wey I make: each of dem dey follow from weda I stop on purpose or I stop because my body just finish. So to call rest optional neva be strong man tin. Na wrong calculation wey I file under character, and na there I file am for most of my adult life.

So one evening dis week go enter di calendar wit notin inside am. Real entry, wey carry di same weight as any oda tin wey dey there. Wen person ask me for dat night, I go tok say I don get sometin already, and na true, no be say I dey do sharp sharp. I dey decide am now, wen my head still clear, exactly so dat di tired version of me for six o'clock no go get vote. Notin go enter dat space. Na dat be di whole specification and na dat part I go first wan trade comot.

Evening wey na my own, wey I no need to first work for am. Nobody don ever call am laziness wen person service motor before e spoil. I no go beg pardon for evening like dat again.