I dey start before I ready

I don start. No be well and no be wit confidence, but di tin dey exist now for way wey e no bin dey exist one hour ago, and dat one na change of category, no be say na small progress. Yesterday e bin be idea. Today e don be draft. I go dey start like dis from now on. To do am badly and early beat to do am fine fine and never, and I don run di second experiment for long enough to call di result honestly.

Di first attempt rough and e dey sidon right there where I fit see am. E no dey shame me. Na just say e still early. Sometin dey inside am wey dey settle person strangely, to look tin wey clear say na version one and to sabi say e no need to defend imsef yet. Nobody else go see dis one, and na exactly dat one make e possible for me to make am at all.

I don dey wait to feel ready since di beginning of dis year. Ready neva come, and I dey almost sure now say e no ever plan to come by imsef, because no be so readiness dey take manufacture. I bin hold di cause and di effect backwards for years. I bin tink say confidence na di entry requirement, wen na receipt e be. To dey wait for am be like say person dey wait to get body before dem go allow am move. I for spot dat mistake sharp sharp inside anoda person life and I no fit see am anywhere inside my own. Di waiting no ever be patience. Na avoidance wey dey stand wit better posture.

Na to start dey make person ready, no be before person start. Di confidence wey I bin dey wait for, na for di far side of di first two minutes dem dey manufacture am and no oda supplier dey anywhere for any price. Every capable person wey I sabi start before dem qualify and dem come qualify for road. Di ones wey wait to feel ready still dey describe di tin wey dem go do one day, wit more or less di same word wey dem bin dey use last year. Di gap between di two group no be talent. Na like two minutes of discomfort wey person gree endure, wey dem repeat until e stop to dey uncomfortable.

So I go do di first two minutes. Dem allow badly and dem expect badly. Two minutes, and den I go fit decide weda third one dey, wit no obligation running for either direction. I no dey commit to di project. I dey commit to two minutes, wey be promise wey small sotay I no fit find small small excuse comot from am, and wey small sotay di part of me wey dey negotiate no get anytin at all to work wit.

I don begin. Everytin else easy pass to begin, and I no go ever do dis particular part again. Di rest na just to continue.