My body dey carry me through di day

I pass di whole day and sometin still remain for my body. I dey climb staircase without first arranging argument for my head. My body dey do wetin di day ask am, and e still dey by evening, and me too I still dey, wey no be so before, and I don even stop to notice say e no be so. One version of me dey for eight o'clock for evening wey I neva meet for long time.

Air dey my chest wen I reach di top of di staircase. I dey sleep and na real sleep, di kain wey dey finish well, no be di kain wey just dey run out. For afternoon, where di flat part of di day bin dey sidon like breath wey person hold, na just more day dey there now. I carry everytin from di motor enter house for one trip and my mind no even follow am.

For some time I bin dey run on small small energy and dey call am coping. I don sabi wetin dat one dey cost now. E no be moral failure and e no be tori about discipline, and any version of dis matter wey dem dey sell as discipline get sometin wey e wan sell. Na bill wey I dey pay wit energy, and dem neva show me di invoice once. Di strange part na how normal e feel di whole time wey e dey happen. Person no dey notice wen di floor dey come down. Na wen e climb back up person go notice, and den e go hard for person to believe say na down there e bin dey live.

Notin here come from big overhaul. Na overhaul I bin dey take fail dis tin before, because any plan wey want make I turn to different person by Monday get one single point of failure build inside am. Dis one come from ten minutes of waka wey I no gree negotiate wit. Small, e dey repeat, e no dey shine. E easy sotay e no fit impress anybody, and na exactly why e work, because tin wey dey impress dey break easy and tin wey boring dey last. I no need di version wey dey fine for eye. I need di one wey go survive bad week.

So today I go waka for ten minutes. No be to burn anytin and no be to repair anytin, na just to move, for any pace wey my body get today. Den I go do am again tomorrow di same time, so dat I no go spend di decision two times. Na di scheduling be di real medicine. Di waka isef na almost by di way. Anytin wey I gats decide about every single day na tin wey I go eventually stop to do.

Dis one no be about how I take look. Na about say enough of me go remain make I fit dey present for di parts of my life wey really concern me, and na only dat reason make di whole tin worth am. Capacity na di point. Everytin else na decoration.