You don comot from directing show wey dey your head

You wake up dey compose explanation for something wey nobody ask about. E dey happen early, before you fit properly defend yourself from am. Window dey gray and calm. Tea dey there or e dey come soon. And somewhere for the next one hour, one version of this day dey where you go just do the thing without any commentary for your head.

Radiator dey tick as e dey warm up. Person music dey pass through wall, too far to make out. That kain flat morning light wey dey land for plain surface. Your keys dey table where you drop am, wey mean say the day get door.

You don dey manage audience wey no dey watch you at all. Everybody wey you dey perform for busy dey run their own version of this same loop, na why the room wey you dey rehearse for never gather sef. Wetin e dey cost you no be shame, because the moment wey you fear no too dey happen. Na the shape of your choices e dey affect: you don dey choose the option wey easy to defend instead of the option wey good pass, and these two things don dey quietly separate for years while you dey tell yourself say you dey considerate.

If you check am well, e no gel. If truly people attention dey fix on you like how the anxiety dey insist, then you for remember, well well, the awkward things everybody around you do last month. You no fit remember. You no fit name three, and dem sef no fit, and the reason be say human attention na scarce resource wey people dey spend almost all on their own self. The spotlight wey you don dey stand under, na you dey hold am. Drop am and you go see say the room na ordinary room with people wey wish you well and dey think of something else entirely.

So today, you go send the message wey you don dey draft and dey soften. No introduction wey dey apologize for say the message exist, no paragraph wey dey explain why you fit ask. The request, plain plain, with the fewest words wey go carry the message. Then you close the app and go do something physical.

E go land as ordinary message, because na so e be. The version wey you rehearse for two weeks and the version wey you send today go read the same for the person wey go receive am. You go collect those two weeks back. Use am for something better.