You Stay What You Keep Doing

You been waiting for feel like one somebody who do dis, but dat feeling neva show up yet. Awhile already. Da morning stay ordinary, da room stay quiet, and da thing still waiting right where you left um. Da order you been expecting stay backwards, and dat's good news.

Shoes by da door, one little bit turned. One notebook wit three pages used. Birds outside stay busy busy about nothing. Da kettle finding its noisy middle den settling down.

You been treating identity like one thing you arrive at, den act from. Dat's why da wait stay so long: identity no come issued befo time, it get build up from evidence, and da only evidence dat count stay what you actually wen do. So one guy who neva write even one time, he not one writer waiting for confidence; he stay one person wit one empty file and one self image dat match um exactly. Sound harsh, but das da least harsh way for see um, cuz dat mean da file stay da whole problem, and da file stay someting you can change dis morning.

Run um da way it actually work. Every time you do da thing you cast one small vote for being somebody who do um, and da belief stay downstream from dat count, not upstream. Dats why one session no change nothing much, but forty change who you think you stay. You not missing some quality odda people wen born wit. You missing one run of days, and days stay da one resource nobody gotta give you.

So today, you do one thing dat person would obviously do, no hesitate about um. Small kine, nothing big, but stay on da record where it count. Not for make progress on da goal, but for add one line to da file, cuz da file stay what you been waiting for dis whole time.

You not going feel um until you been acting dat way for good while first. Start da count today and let da feeling catch up on its own time.