I stay solid fo da peopo dat count on me

I stay wit dem and I stay really hea. Not half hea, not finishing someting else inside my head while my face stay doing da listening. Present, inside da room, fo whatevah dis ordinary hour turn out fo hold. Dis da ting I like be good at mo den anyting else I stay good at right now, and dis da only one nobody going eva write down nowea or give me credit fo.

Get one conversation happening down by my knees and I wen crouch down so I can be inside um. Somebody stay explaining someting to me in enormous detail, notting about um urgent, and I not rushing um along or steering um toward one finish. Dis hour no suppose fo be going nowea else. I wen stop checking how long um stay going.

Had stretches wea I was inside da room and somewea else at da same time, and I tink people wen feel dat even if nobody eva wen say um out loud. Attention, dat not invisible. People can always tell, and mostly dey going decide someting about demselves instead of someting about me, and dass da part dat suppose to stop me cold. Somebody who only get half listened to, dey no conclude dat I stay busy. Dey conclude dat dey boring. I no like be somebody who was technically present fo dis. Dey not going remembah dat I was busy. Dey going remembah if I wen look up or if I nevah.

Wat I can offah, dat not endless patience, cuz nobody get dat and pretending oddahwise only make me mo worse wen um run out. Wat I can offah is attention, in specific bounded amounts, given all da way. Ten real minutes worth mo den one whole evening of jus being nearby, and da reason simple enough. Nobody remembah proximity. Dey remembah da time dey was da only ting inside da room. Quality of attention beat quantity of hours, and dass genuinely good news, cuz hours, dass exactly da ting I no mo. Ten minutes wea notting else exist, dass one completely different substance from one whole evening spent close enough fo hear.

So today da phone going inside one oddah room fo da first ten minutes us stay together. Not da whole evening, and not one rule so ambitious dat by Thursday I awready wen break um and by da weekend I quietly wen throw away da whole idea. Ten minutes, wit notting else competing fo me. Bounded and real beat unlimited and theoretical every single time, and mo bettah I promise small and actually deliver um.

Dis da part dey going remembah, and um made out of ordinary hours exactly like dis one. Not da holidays. Dis one right hea. And I stay hea fo um.