I go outside befo da day start

I stay outside and da day nevah start asking me fo notting yet. Da air stay doing wat early air do. I wen get hea befo um, and dass da whole ting I wen set out fo do dis morning. Dass one low bar and um change everyting dat come aftah um. Ten minutes ago I was horizontal and unconvinced. Dat gap between unconvinced and outside, dass da only part dat eva wen need managing. Da order of da day, dass one of da few parts of um dat genuinely mine fo set.

Nobody stay around except one person walking one dog, and neither one of dem stay in any hurry. My shoes awready little bit wet. Da light stay da flat unhurried kine dat happen fo about twenty minutes and den no happen again fo da rest of da day. Way far off, one van stay backing up. I nevah look at one screen yet and um showing.

Mos mornings I go straight from da bed to da screen, and da day get me befo I get myself. I know exactly wat dat cost and I wen do um anyway, hundreds of times, and dass worth saying plain instead of dressing um up nice. Da first input I take set da shape of everyting aftah um, and I was handing dat decision ovah to whatevah wen arrive ovahnight from people who no know me and no stay tinking about me. Dat not one small ting fo give away. I wen give um away by default instead of by choice, and dass how mos tings get given away. I would nevah let one stranger set da tone of my whole day, and den I wen let one screen full of dem do exactly dat every morning.

Ten minutes outside first change da entire shape of da day, and not cuz um fix anyting. Um work cuz I wen get to um befo um wen get to me. Da order mattah mo den da amount. One day I start on my own terms and one day I start on somebody else terms, dey contain exactly da same hours and dey feel like two completely different lives, and da difference between dem stay decided inside da first ten minutes. Dass one ridiculous good return on ten minutes, and um stay available again tomorrow.

So tonight da shoes go by da door. Tomorrow, ten minutes, befo da phone. Dass da whole plan and um fit inside any morning I realistically going get, da bad ones included. I stay removing da decision da night befo, cuz da version of me at six in da morning nevah should have been asked fo make um. Willpower, dass one junk plan. Shoes by da door, dass one good one. Da decision get made tonight, while I still da one making um.

Da day can have me now. I wen get dea first, and I intend fo keep getting dea first.