Ngibuza umbuzo engiwesabayo

Ngiwubuzile. Umbuzo ebengiwuzungeza amasonto amathathu usuphumele egumbini kanti igumbi liphilile ngokuphelele. Akukho okuphukile. Ukuzungeza yikho okwakubiza, ukubuza kuthathe cishe imizuzwana eyisishiyagalolunye, kanti bengiwenza lowo mshintshiswano iminyaka ngiwubiza ngokuthi ukuqaphela. Umbuzo olandelayo uzoshesha.

Ukuthula ngakolunye uhlangothi. Hhayi olubi. Uhlobo lapho umuntu ecabanga khona ngempela kunokuhlanganisa impendulo. Ndawana thile ngemuva kwabo kunyakaza isihlalo. Umhlathi wami usuvulekile, kanti bengingazi nhlobo ukuthi ubuvalekile.

Ukungabuzi kwakuzwakala kuphephile. Kwakungaphephile, kwakuthule nje, kanti ngakukhokhela ukuthula ngamasonto okuqagela into ebengingayithola mahhala ngomusho owodwa. Inguqulo engangiyakhile ngingenayo impendulo yayinemininingwane eminingi futhi inesiqiniseko esikhulu kunanoma yini eyagcina iyiqiniso, futhi yayimbi kakhulu, ngoba yilokho ingqondo ekwenzayo ngesikhala. Ayisishiyi singenalutho. Isigcwalisa kabi bese iphatha lokho ekugcwalise ngakho njengobufakazi. Lokho ekufaka lapho kubhalwe ngesandla sami, okuyikho kanye okwenza kungangifikeli ukungabaza umthombo.

Noma yiyiphi impendulo yangempela ibaluleke kakhulu kunendaba engizakhela yona ngingenayo. Ngisho nempendulo ebengingayifuni inginika into eqinile, kanti ukuma emhlabathini ongajabulisi kungcono kunokuma emhlabathini engawuqamba ngoLwesibili olwedlule. Isiqiniseko sasingeyona neze inhloso. Kwakuwulwazi. Bengigwema umusho omubi owodwa ngokuphila ngaphakathi komusho ocatshangwayo omubi kakhulu, ngokuphindaphindiwe, ngaphandle kwenkokhelo, amasonto amabili.

Ngakho ngiwubhala phansi, ngokusobala, bese ngiwubuza engxoxweni elandelayo enginayo. Ubhalwe kuqala, ngoba ngesikhathi sangempela ngizowuthambisa ube yinto engekho ongayiphendula bese ngidumazeka buthule ngalokho okubuya kuleyo nguqulo ethambisiwe. Umbuzo obhaliwe yiwo owangempela. Yiwo obuzwayo, ngalawo magama, ngaphandle kwesethulo eside ebengizosakha ukuze ngizenzele kube lula.

Kubuziwe, kuphenduliwe, kanti ukuqagela sekuphelile. Ngishintshanise inqwaba yezimpendulo eziqanjiwe ngeyodwa eyiqiniso, kanti eyiqiniso yayincane kunakho konke engakwakha. Angisakuthengi lokho kuthula futhi.